I’m not what God is looking for… am I?

Do you ever find yourself praying for God to transform Newport in amazing ways (just like he does else where in the world)? And although you really really want this you simply can’t [and don’t] imagine God wanting to use you to achieve this. You never think of yourself as ‘God’s plan’; you’re not that great man or woman of faith, you explain to God silently, that is required for the job. You haven’t been a Christian long, or you have never told your friends that you have found Jesus, or you really struggle with what little faith you have, in fact you wander if you doubt more than you believe, or… well, we all have an explanation for God; He understands, He’ll use someone more skilled, more passionate, more… Christian.

Sometimes you may even wonder if God ever meant for you to be involved in His Kingdom. Could He have actually chosen you?

Each morning your enthusiasm for God fades a little because you remember how much you screwed up the day before and just how much you need God. You feel such a sense of loss in your life that you can’t ever imagine being filled. Your boldness and outspoken courage never leaves your dreams. Your hurt hinders you enjoying the delight God has in you; comments people have said [and not always to you] wound you more than you would like to realise.

You look at the inspiring Christian books on your shelf and think to yourself, ‘am I really be what God is looking for’?

YES! Yes you are!!!!!

God blesses those who realize their need for him, for the Kingdom of Heaven is given to them.
God blesses those who mourn, for they will be comforted.
God blesses those who are gentle and lowly, for the whole earth will belong to them.
God blesses those who are hungry and thirsty for justice, for they will receive it in full…
God blesses those who are persecuted because they live for God, for the Kingdom of Heaven is theirs.
God blesses you when you are mocked and persecuted and lied about because you are my followers. Be happy about it! Be very glad! For a great reward awaits you in heaven. Matt 5:3-6, 10-12

This is the list of people that God is looking for so that He can bless them and reveal Himself to the world through them; the misfits, the hurt, the insulted, the bad, the timid, the weak in faith, the distraught… you and me!

Everything you thought disqualified you from God’s blessing, is actually what God is hunting out. He wants to put things right, He wants to strengthen, He wants to heal. Because of all this you and I are a lighthouse of hope.

You are the light of the world - like a city on a mountain, glowing in the night for all to see. Matt 5:14

We are city transformers!

There is a song on Delirious’ new album ‘Mission Bell’ called Miracle Maker. In it they sing “I’ve nothing much but the wounds I feel.” However, by the time the song ends their words are resounding a different truth “I’m holding on, with your life in mine… I’m walking in the shoes of my miracle maker. I’m standing with the faith of a miracle maker.”