Wonderfully loved.

For the last few days the cross has just been buzzing around in my mind. It is as though my thoughts have been trying to capture some understanding of the vastness of it all [and failing]. But I find my spirit and heart both skipping, growing with excitement and joy. It is as though these thoughts, while somehow indefinable, are both a pleasure to me and praise to God. I can see Him smiling.
It is as though I am a child again looking at something that my father has created in absolute wonder. My childish eyes would widen with amazement because I couldn’t even begin to comprehend where you would begin to achieve what is now before me. It’s incredible and I would see my father smile enjoying my wonder.

This empty cross, this landmark of victory, is a call to living a life of fusion.

“If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross and follow me.“ Matt 16:24. Or as The Message puts it "Anyone who intends to come with me has to let me lead. You're not in the driver's seat; I am.”

As I thought this through a Rebecca St James song, which Ruth put on in the car on our way into work, really hit home. Previous overlooked it suddenly became my anthem for the day.

Love Being Loved By You
I’ve got this story in my heart
And its become my song
And I can’t help but sing
The cynics and the saints
The famous and unnamed
One day we will all fall before You
But I’m gonna bow today

Jesus, You are so wonderful
I cannot live without Your love
Jesus, You are so glorious
No one can move me like You do
I love being loved by You
I love being loved by You

So take me deeper still
Where Your mysteries are revealed
And I see You as You are
Oh, show me how to die
‘Til all that’s left of me
Is a mirror of everything You are
And I come before You complete

Who am I that You would notice me?
Who am I that You would think of me?
I stand in awe of Your amazing love
Who am I that You would rescue me?
Who am I that You would die?

Jesus, You are so wonderful
I cannot live without Your love